I am back at my temp gig after an amazing weekend in Montana teaching artists about using the internet to effectively manage and promote their creative practice.
I’m not going to lie to you, it’s a huge letdown. This weekend was so inspiring. We were in a beautiful place, with great artists who were really eager to learn. I was able to teach and share ideas and inspirations. It was amazing. I loved every minute of it. I wish I could teach that workshop every weekend. If that was my job I would be overjoyed. I felt so energized over the two-and-a-half days, and then I basically slept the whole day on the way home because I was so exhausted. It was great.
And now I am back in this midtown office, and I feel myself getting a little sad. Even just now, I had a short conversation about my ongoing duties, they can’t seem to tell me how much longer I’ll be here. I am not allowed to give any feedback about the work they assign to me, it is unwelcome. The right hand doesn’t know what the left hand is training me (and not training me) to do.
It’s tough to go from such a brilliant and fun work experience back to assistant level office work. It only underscores how much I am ready for a real, challenging, full-time job that I am passionate about.
I need to hold on to the teaching experience because it was so fulfilling, and enjoy that, as opposed to feeling sad that it isn’t my day-to-day. I definitely want teaching, training and facilitating to be a part of my professional practice going forward.
As a gift to myself, I bought a yoga package on the cheap so that I can go to unlimited yoga for the next few months. I got some extra money from this teaching project for being the “on-site coordinator,” so all the stress that was caused by trying to locate a functional projector and herding participants from place to place will be re-channeled into my yoga.